Procrastination & Stuff

So much work! Tomorrow is the last day of school... and I already got tests (major social one) that I barely studied for. I have a chinese essay that needs to be done. I JUST finished my L.A one. *sigh* I'm going to die! D: Marks are like crucial for term 2... ;3 And it's really difficult.

Anyway, lately... there's been stuff stirring around. I'm in my emotional confusion state again... TwT . ugh. Well, along with that I got new glasses today, and it won't be ready until next week. The optomatrist was damn cute though, LOL. NYAH. >o< Ah, well, I picked out spectacles that suit my chub chub face I guess? :3

I don't want to see my friend fall into things with the wrong person. Except, she'd never understand why I'm so cautious with this particular person. I can't explain it, and all I remember is being questioned why.  There's a part of me that will always be ridden with anger, confusion, and sadness. The hurt rings in the back of my mind, and I know it's there. Sometimes, I don't know how I cope. I wouldn't dare bother explaining anything to her any more. I need someone who supports me in these times with no questions asked. Except, it always is questions being asked. Ones I don't like. Ones that make me want to shove my head into a gutter even more. *sigh*

Slowly, I'll disattach myself from her. Slowly, though we can still joke and whatnot. But eventually my instincts push me to back away from anything thats personal to me and keep it all within. I think that's why I had my meltdown last month (not a good experiance). Ugh.

This is probably me, LOL with so much work to do that I have to remind myself with.

Also, I have been putting off so much crap. I havent been able to upload the photos. Now i got to work on a chinese essay. I'm ready to PULL. MY. Hair. OUT.

xoxo.
-aV

RIP Whitney

Rest in Paradise Whitney Houston.

I was stunned. Like, absolutely stunned to find someone tweet about it.. </3

I didn't really exactly grow up listening to her songs, but from what I have heard (I Will Always Love You) , her voice is absolutely that of an angel.
At first I didn't believe it, but it was confirmed on Perez Hilton <-- click here, to check article out.

I hope y'all pray for this angel in paradise.
It's always sad to see singers pass on .
Rest in Paradise.
xoxo

February Beats

Hello dumplings.

I think this week has been quite the 'joy ride'. I was left with a brief moment of sadness, but it's been quickly lifted up. This time though, I hope I actually have the guts to see him - instead of backing out. Which I think I deeply regret because now I'm probably thirty times more afraid. But at least, our plan this time is for the movies. And it'll be an hopeful easy distraction so I won't have to do much talking - but enough to get to know this person. :3

I must be honest, the other side of my less shy me, is quite giddy. I'm excited for it, but I'll hold back on the excitement because honestly I don't want to disappoint myself. I only hope that my social awkwardness doesn't shine through. Or maybe it will. I don't know. >_< When was the last time I fretted over such a thing?

Oh my, oh my.

Anyway, Valentine's day is coming in three days. And I must admit I had been pretty recklessly bold in what I was doing. I'm not going to go into detail, but it's turning out good. At least, it's a hopeful good. Regardless though, I'm happy and back on track. Except for the fact that I haven't been able to keep up with a daily post. I definitely have pictures prepared for the world to see though - that's for sure.

Nyah. I hope y'all have a good time over the next week. As for me, I guess I'm chilling it out.

Xoxo

-a V

February x Friday

Wow! The month has gone by so quickly! Just last week was a January, and already we're onto February. It's crazy. Ahh, I missed the good ol' feeling of blogging. And if anybody besides the few people I know reads this, well, I'm back!

Well, thats what I've been lookin' like in the past week. Listening to music, sleeping, and smiling. And actually I've been so tired and I haven't been able to get any sleep. Lately, it's only been 6-7 hours and thats it. Mainly because I can't help staring at my DREAM Circle Lenses.

Over the weekend, I have been immensely staring at pinkyparadise 's website all day. And I've scanned through a bunch of 14.0 mm in Diameter lenses since I'm a first time wearer. And I was afraid to go too big, because my eyes are quite wee-sized. At least, if I don't force them up, I look pretty... unhappy. Well, I do need an enlargement and a major double lid. Oh well.

Anyway, I've debated between the Geo Nudy Blue and the G&G GBT Sky Blue or G&G GBT Blue.

G&G GBT Blue

G&G GBT Sky Blue

Geo Nudy Blue

Anyway, these are my three choices, I definitely want a Geo Nudy Green, but I think that's too much to ask for considering that I'm not going to be the one paying for them. Plus, if I want super fast shipping, it'd cost another twenty bucks. And being the impatient me, that's what I'll likely ask for. >____< Ahh, well, I love circle lenses.

I'd be happy if I got it. Reminds me, I need to get a haircut. So I decided that this time for sure I am going to do it in February. Because I just learned that we have a bunch of 4-5 day long weekends for school, so I can probably get it cut and have it grow out a bit. As much as I love my current stylist, I still am afraid because I had terrible past stylists. My current one has the most amazing cute little look book with like asian hairstyles. And I got an amazing cut from him like... a year or two ago. But I wanted to grow mine out, and now that it's grown longer... I'm ready to trim it down. *Plus, it'll fix all my disgusting split ends for a while*.

Anyway, it'd be nice to have someone follow my blog! I've had only 300+ page views, but no one really looks at these posts do they? >O OOh well, I'm doing this out of love. ;D

Have fun Aliens, xoxo

-    aV